"...the one who formed you says, “Do not be afraid, for I have ransomed you. I have called you by name; you are mine. When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy One of Israel, your Savior..."
~ Isaiah 43:1b-3a
Day 20: My little bit of happy - time alone with the Super Hubbie!
Day 21: My little bit of happy - Sarah's pony tails.
Dear Caleb,
Three weeks since your birth... unbelievable. Although in the days leading up to it (and frankly the entire pregnancy) I worried there was something wrong with you I still find myself in a state of unbelief that you are really gone. Oh how I longed for you! Oh how we waited for you! Did you feel our love?! Did you know you were loved and wanted?!
Today has been a weepy day. I've felt on the verge of emotional break down several times but have managed to keep myself together. Some days are definitely better than others. I wanted to go to the cemetary today but I prefer to go alone and didn't have the chance. Tomorrow I'll have the chance, but it's supposed to be cold and wet tomorrow. If it snows I wonder what that will do to your balloon... I might have to go get you a new one.
My postpartum bleeding seems to be just about over, but now my hair is falling out. Oh. Goody. Sigh sigh sigh...
I love you tiny precious boy... and I miss you so so much.
Sadly,
~ Mama
"...You have been chosen to know me, believe in me, and understand that I alone am God. There is no other God— there never has been, and there never will be..."
~ Isaiah 43:10b
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Praying for you, friend....
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