"I love the Lord because He hears my voice and my prayer for mercy. Because He bends down to listen, I will pray as long as I have breath! Death wrapped its ropes around me; the terrors of the grave overtook me. I saw only trouble and sorrow. Then I called on the name of the Lord: “Please, Lord, save me!” How kind the Lord is! How good He is! So merciful, this God of ours! The Lord protects those of childlike faith; I was facing death, and He saved me. Let my soul be at rest again, for the Lord has been good to me."
~ Psalm 116: 1-7
Day 40: My little bit of happy - a Willow Tree figure from a friend at church!
On Friday I hit the 6 week post partum mark. Wow. Can it really be that it's been such a short time? And at the same time, has it really been so long? I miss my boy. So so so much. But emotionally I am doing very well. I am sad, and I am disappointed, but I am living life to it's fullest and enjoying every day I am given.
In the morning it will be Monday. The day when Caleb and I would have hit week 24 - the week when they are considered viable outside the womb. In our case it really doesn't make much of a difference since Caleb died before he was born, but at the same time it does give me pause.
Today I was given the sweetest of gifts! One of the mamas at church gave me a gift, the gift of a Willow Tree figure. We had been talking a few weeks ago about how lovely they are and she was saying that she has one representing each member of their family. In the conversation I had wanted to tell her ab
out how I had wanted to buy one to remember Caleb by but had become to emotionally overwhelmed in the store and had to leave, but I couldn't tell her because I couldn't do it without bawling. So she didn't even know that I wanted one, but when she saw this one it reminded her of the pictures of Caleb and I. Does that sound like a God thing, or what?! I am so unbelievably moved by this, I just can't even express it.
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